u/Living_Childhood_608

Radhika and I met during my first job, and for me, it was love at first sight. Despite rumors that she was casually involved with someone, I asked her out for coffee, and she said yes. About a year into our relationship, I discovered she had been secretly flirting with a colleague. When I confronted her, she admitted her mistake and promised it would never happen again. I forgave her because I loved her deeply.
A year later, we planned a trip to Europe, which I fully funded since my career had progressed while she was still earning very little. Unfortunately, the trip became a disaster from the very beginning. We argued over travel arrangements, and she remained upset and distant for most of the vacation, barely speaking to me.
On the final night before our next flight, we decided to visit a club hoping to enjoy ourselves and leave the tension behind. While I was getting drinks, a man approached Radhika and started flirting with her. When I returned, I noticed they had been talking, but she refused to tell me what happened. I brushed it aside and tried to enjoy the rest of the evening.
A little later, she asked me to go outside and buy cigarettes. After spending nearly fifteen minutes searching for a shop, I returned and couldn't find her anywhere. As I was calling her, I saw her walking out of a washroom area, followed by the same man from earlier.
Moments later, they kissed. My mind raced with questions about what had happened between them, but one thing was clear—what I was seeing was real. In that moment, I felt completely shattered.
As we left the club, I looked at her and quietly said, "l saw what you did." She said nothing. I canceled the rest of the trip, booked flights back to India, and left her behind emotionally the moment we landed.
It's been only a week since then. She has tried calling me, but I haven't answered. Amid this, I'm also experiencing heightened anxiety and panic attacks, and I'm unable to sleep at nights and unable to focus on work at day.