What now?
TLDR: youngest kid graduated HS and moved across the country and now I’m lost.
My littlest bird has flown the coop and this one stung. My older children both left home to attend college. They come home on breaks but are far enough that we normally only see them for Christmas and summer. My youngest decided to take a few years to himself to figure out who he wants to be.
I drove with him across the country (literally the west coast to the east) and had an adventure. A trip for the ages. We saw stupid things, took stupid pictures and told stupid stories. It was exactly what my momma heart needed in that moment.
But now, the silence is deafening. I don’t know who I am or who I want to be when I “grow up”. I’ve always just been a mom first and all the other stuff was second. My kids were everything. I didn’t want to be a mom but figured since my body had other ideas I would be the best mom I could. I think I did an ok job. And during the time raising my kids I finished my degree and have a fairly successful job.
But what now? How do you fill the silence? How do you go about figuring out who you are? I just miss them so much it’s crushing me.
Side note: yes, I’m in therapy. I want to know what others are doing to get through this.