Is there anything in my chart that makes so hard to stop daydreaming? I can't focus!
Hi! It's been really hard to get back to reality. It's something that I have been doing since childhood, I come from a dysfunctional family and have been bullied at elementary school. It's been difficult for me to make friends and the daydreaming thing had helped me understand social interactions, because I used to get really angry when I was a child, and by day dreaming I was able to see myself from the outside.
It stopped when I was in my twenty-something.
But right now, having been a mom, unemployed, and trying to finish my art school career for the third time (yes... I wasn't mentally able to finish when I was younger), having broken up with my partner, it's getting so hard not to put my imagination to work in fantasy all the time.
I have talked about this in therapy but it's just not working.
Is there something in my chart that might tell me why this is happening??
I end up so tired that it is hard for me to even finish my art school assignments, I can't bring myself to draw anything, like I can't focus to achieve my most desired dream: to be an illustrator and make a living out of it.
EDIT: and it's something I mention in a reply: I feel I lack discipline, motivation, consistency, strength, ... I may feel like I don't have the energy to do and achieve the many things I have to do daily, but I don't know how to build myself up to do the very thing that I love, everyday... and at least maintain my excessive daydreaming for just a few moments.
Thanks in advance!!