I am stopping Orilissa a week before my lap at the request of my surgeon. I’m hoping to ttc at the earliest possible moment (ofc based on recovery) and am wondering how long Orilissa or the lap will delay my ovulation.
I had a lap about 5 years ago and put in an iud in hopes that would prevent regrowth. Unfortunately had 2 endometriomas grow back, TTC without help didn’t work, and flare ups got worse over time; then an ER made everything grow even more and resulted in poor quality embryos. Going for a second lap next week - anyone in a similar situation have success with a second lap? Don’t want it to make things worse but also it seems like things are getting worse all by themselves anyways.
I don’t mean to trigger or feel unempathetic towards anyone because I know that there are people in different trenches - older, miscarriages, failed transfers. I just wanted to take a minute to vent. A a type A girly where everything has worked out with hard work in my life and even if it hasn’t there’s a solution to get to the end goal, this process is making me feel so frustrated, sad, mad, envious, everything all at once. I’m 33, which I know is “young” in this IVF world but I don’t feel young. I always thought by 33 I’d have 2 kids and another one by 35. As someone with older parents I wanted to have a family younger. And now we’re just stuck in this hamster wheel of IVF and Laps and trying naturally or transferring, suppressing one way or another, taking supplements and on and on, and meanwhile everyone around me is pregnant and thriving. I’m happy for them but I can’t help but grieve my situation and be so afraid of time just passing by. And then I feel guilty for feeling jealous! Also doesn’t help that all the meds just put my mind into even more spirals, and then of course there’s physical effects from weight gain to hot flashes.
I’ll be 34 soon and if our next steps don’t work then 35 when and if we are able to have a child. Not to mention things that could go wrong in between. It just feels like everyone I try to talk to about this from my husband to my mom to my friends just say it’ll work out. But we don’t know that! And even if it does we don’t know when!
Beyond just wanting to be a mom so badly, I’m so desperate to get out of this hamster wheel my life is on where I just feel like I’m walking around in a fog of emotions all the time with the occasional blip of hope that just gets dashed again. I feel like I’ve just lost who I am as a person in this process and I know regardless it will leave a mark but I need to get out of this hole I’m in. I have no motivation for anything any longer.
Really no solution to this but just wanted to vent, I’m sure there are others who feel this way. If anyone has found a way through this I’ll gladly take it, but otherwise happy to just commiserate with everyone. Ughhhhh
I’m so conflicted. I have stage iv DIE and getting a lap in a few weeks. This road has not been easy and of course I’m so impatient to get pregnant as soon as I can. We did a retrieval before the lap so have a few poorly graded euploids, but I cannot decide whether to just transfer one as soon as possible after the lap or to try naturally for a few months. I don’t want to try and then have it not work and have wasted the few months post surgery that are the most fertile, but also if there’s a chance of works out we could save our euploids for future children potentially.
Would love to hear your stories - did you transfer after? If so how soon after? If you tried sans IVF how many cycles before it worked (or didn’t work and you moved to IVF anyways - and did that work?)?
TIA! There being no one right answer is driving me crazy!!
Edit: I’m 33 (close to 34 by the time lap and recovery are done)
I am also taking orilissa the month leading up to the lap and potentially after if we do a transfer (RE said depends on what they find during surgery). He also said if we do try naturally we shouldn’t do it for more than 3 months. My endo grew back after my first lap 5 years ago so I do have a history of it coming back.