Dealing with mom's loss and heartbreak
Hi guys I'm 20F my mom died last year in May 2025 and me and my ex he was my first boyfriend and maybe even my first love and we were together for 2.5 years and when my mom was in hospital she wanted to talk to him and he didn't pick up her call coz he didn't want to commit to me (he thought she was gonna ask him to commit) they have talked on call for 2-3 times before when she had cancer but when he didn't pick up phone in hospital and then she passed away I was sad coz when my mom had cancer for 3 years he acted as comfort to me a distraction so even after she passed away we still used to be on and off and now it's been over a year and we are still on and off and ik it's linked to my mom and that time period but I'm not able to study not focus I always try to distract myself through social media and all I just can't deal with loss of 2 people mann I have number my feelings this past year i am even taking therepy and i still feel like I haven't really gotten better.