All these success stories make me so mad.
I’ve been on this medication for about 4 weeks and have had almost zero improvements.
I had been on Luvox for around 18 years and had mild success with it but it was mostly for my OCD rather than depression. I started Spravato at the beginning of this year and while it took a some time I started feeling better, although it hasn’t fully "fixed" me yet. I decided to try a different antidepressant and initially started with Pristiq, but it gave me horrible acne so I quit it immediately and went back on Luvox for the time being. I was eventually recommended Auvelity and while my insurance doesn’t cover it, my mom works at the doctor’s office that I get my Spravato treatment at so I’ve been getting sample bottles for now.
I started with a single pill for a week and than moved to 2 pills after that and it’s been a steady decline ever since. All the progress I made on Spravato has been completely undone, I don‘t care about anything I enjoyed before and I hardly have the energy to get out of bed. I don’t really care about eating that much and I mostly spend my days staring into space. Of course, I look up other people’s experiences and what do I see? Post after post saying how this drug changed their lives and gave them the energy to live again.
I’m glad that it’s helped so many people, but I look at my experience and feel so jagged and angry. Why isn’t it working for me!? What’s wrong with me that makes this not work? I’m so exhausted and feeling hopeless. The only positive thing is my OCD is completely manageable but I’m just surviving. I don’t know what to do at this point besides quitting.