[M?, 18] weird thoughts.
So, I feel... eh? About being a guy. I don't exactly dislike it. It isn't uncomfortable or anything, but recently I find thst i have really weird thoughts now that i'm not worrying about, like, food.
I found myself fantasizing about being a woman the other day, and didn't catch it until I realized i thought "if I could do this, I think i might," which immediately just... "wait that's not a straight person thing to think."
Then I started noticing I do this kind of thing everywhere. I mostly embody myself in women when it comes to fiction, my favorite characters to write are women, i relate the most to women in media, and if I have a choice I tend to prefer to play women in games.
But then other times, I feel upset by it or like it's "a bad thing to think," and I can't tell how much of that is the conservative Christian upbringing vs actually ME. I feel like I don't have enough "evidence" towards how I feel one way or the other, if that makes sense, and I just wanted to get this off my chest. I just don't know if i'm psyching myself out or if there's something actually here.
Either way a second voice would be nice.
Posted on alternative account for... obvious reasons. (Mother is a conservative.)