u/Low_Machine_6222

Seems like everyone and their mom are on apps cheating or “just flirting” these days. Is there really any point in ending a marriage, confusing/upsetting our child, the financial ruin, the otherwise loving and, until recently the most amazing and trusting relationship I’ve ever had of a decade & a half? I feel like all the bad things would happen from divorce & separation & I’d just wind up with someone else who would be doing the same thing. Am I better to just bottle it up as best I can, or accept the “you’re imagining things” I’ve been handed?

We’ve been together since just about before the “dating apps” became the way most people seem to find a partner these days, be it LTR or quick hook-up. We missed it by an inch & until recent, it’s been amazing. I’m almost positive she’s “making content” with other men and while I work. She won’t admit it, I don’t have “hard proof” just poor quality audio of men describing all of her body, and hearing what I can only assume are “tipping noises” that sound like a g*nshot or similar. I don’t use sites like those & wouldn’t know where to go to actually prove it. I don’t wan to sign up for them all to try & figure it out so she’ll at least stop gas-lighting me. I’ve never cheated, I’m of my word & always thought she was too. I’m not sure where to turn.

Long story short, (tried typing it all out but closed the app on accident & it’s all gone) she’s cheating, sounds like with multiple men, at the same time, AND streaming it somewhere. I don’t know where I don’t who or how long/how many. After finding something (I won’t go into deal about here right now, but very disturbing). I put a recorder where I thought things were happening when I go to work & before she picks up our kid. I’ve never been on a live cam site, or steaming sex show sort of thing (I’m not a saint, sure I watch porn just not that way) and I’ve never been unfaithful to her in over a decade. I’m hearing what sounds like her having sex, multiple men commenting on her body, race, and genitalia. I’m hearing her and at least two other men speaking about where the condom was left, that it’s in the trash, and one of them thinks I’ll find it, etc. It’s all obvious to me.

Here’s the kicker, it’s only audio, there’s no video & the audio isn’t incredibly clear. One thing I’m sure I’m hearing sounds like either gunshots or explosion sounds while these many other men are commenting (I’m assuming these are “tips”) from viewers? I don’t really know. Is anyone aware of WHICH site I may be able to hopefully/hopefully not? Find my wife in a very non-deniable situation so we can have a conversation that’s not me being told I’m crazy/hearing things/hallucinating.

Please help me, I’ve been feeling insane, gas-lit, angry, and guilty all at the same time. We have a child together & I don’t want to ruin his life or anyone else’s if I could be somehow imagining this, but also… don’t know what I’ll do if I’m not. It’s like trying to sail a a puzzle without knowing what it looks like.