Confliction
Hey hey
So idk if I'm coming here to vent or to seek advise but idk what to do.
I am a 27 year old woman with a kid. I love women since I was young but I've never slept with a woman before (I want to but the opportunity never arise). Everyone knows my sexuality except my parents and my big sister. Well, that big sister found out recently because I was seeing someone and wanted to meet up with her but lied about where I was going then all hell broke loose. We share an apartment together but its in her name. She threatened to kicked me out and now says she's seeing be differently and we aren't as close as we use to be. I didnt tell her my sexuality until recently because she has been saying things about people in the queer community for years, even about people in our family who are gay/lesbian. She has talked about how she hates it and despises it so much and how god doesnt like it etc.
We were ale to have an open conversation after all of that and I told her that I havent like kissed or been intimate with a woman. She said to me "I know you. It's just a faze." I'm like what??? I'm 27 years old. Being attracted to women is and will never be a faze. She even said that if I did anything, I should not bring those kind of things around my child (as I said, she has wild views on it all). I told her that I know I will end up marrying a woman and want to live an open lifestyle. She disagrees with the entire queer lifestyle and she is someone who's opinion I value so now I am stuck and dont know where to go from here.