feeling invalidated by my mom
why does my mom make everything a competition? honestly I love my mom a lot because growing up she took care of me whenever I got really sick. but anytime my health gets worse she always says shit like ‘my asthma was worse,’ ‘I used to get so bad that two people would have to hold me up and carry me around with my arms over their shoulders because I’d keep fainting,’ ‘yours isn’t even that bad,’ or ‘you’re lucky you don’t have it the way I did.’ and I've been hearing the same shit since I was a kid and I'm 19 now
I had 2 attacks last year and had to go to the ER, and the second time I was almost about to die. even the nurses were shocked at the state I was brought in.
now whenever I get sick she doesn’t care at all. she's just like “oh? yeah well take your medicine” in the most disinterested tone ever. but when it’s one of my siblings getting even the simplest little sickness she gets so worried
my health is the worst it’s ever been. my studies have been affecting my mental health badly. I’ve lost a lot of weight because I eat only one meal a day as my GERD makes me not feel hungry and I'm someone who could never lose weight easily. but I’m never telling her anything again. I could literally be on the brink of death and still not tell her anything ever now because she completely ruined that feeling of being cared for