u/Lunar__8420

Me 18F had a fights 2 days ago with my BF 26M and he was extremely rude and said I'm not studying well I should focus on my career more and stuff like that. I had my ego issues so I was like then don't marry me if I don't get successful and he was like then how will u eat and yada yada
and then he slut shamed me so I was like no it's not just this and I asked him the real issue and guess what he was jealous of being on discord with a male friend and playing roblox for hours but I could have been with him too he is just busy and my that male friend usually takes his side when I vent our fights to him so I don't think it should be threat to him. But it's ok male ego and shit so I took his casual sounding sorry.
Today we were sexting and he was using a disrespectful word so I would not cum at the end but pretended to then after it was done I told him don't use that word and he was like "so u didn't cum?, why didn't u stop me? it feels like fucking a dead body" and got pissed
Am I in the wrong or overreacting should I have not pretended to cum to make him cum?? and then confront?

Me 18F and my Bf 26M when ever we fight he indirectly says things like "u feel like a burden to my life and future" sometimes and then when I confront him after the fight he just denies and says it's in your head.
Last week we had sex and he was so rude and rough too me. He ignored me asking him to stop and slow down several times and said it's ok it's just your second time it happens.
He not only ignored me tearing up but also shut me up by putting his hands on my mouth. later I slept and after waking up I told him that it wasn't part of any roleplay or anything I was genuinely asking him to slow down and he hurt me a lot. but he acted all proud saying 'u like it hardcore don't u?' I said nothing. (thinking apart from these things he does love me a lot and treat me nicely most of the times)
so is it all in my head or does he really kinda hate me a lil ???