Anyone Else Feel Constantly Exhausted?
I have recently realized the extent of my enmeshment with my parents. I am way older than I feel someone should be when realizing this.
I FEEL CONSTANTLY EXHAUSTED after decades of this. Like all I want to do is sleep, which obviously isn’t possible.
Does anyone else feel SO TIRED?
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(Read the rest if you feel like it, if not, I’m mostly curious about the question in the title. I just wanted to get the rest off my chest)
I know my feelings are not reality so when I feel hopeless that I can make my life better I know this is not true. And this also makes me feel exhausted. It’s daunting. I know it’s doable.
I’m at the beginning of truly changing things, even though I realized this quite a while ago, I just didn’t realize the extent of the damage to me.
I am working on it, seeing a therapist, etc. I am trying to find a level of relating to my parents that works for me, but it’s going to take time.
Seeing my mom‘s reactions in real time to me stepping back is very eye-opening. They’ve been happening for years, but I guess I didn’t want to recognize them for what they were: Not fair to me.
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