West side of north Little Rock , Second night inna row, a blackout. Currently 8 thousand without power, same locations and time of day. Tf is going on around here? It can’t be just fluke 😐
I have always been a people pleaser. I always went out of my way to make sure everyone’s taken care of but I end up getting taken advantage of. Always felt like I had to take care of people ever since I was small. I don’t care too much about strangers opinions, it hurts me to the core when people I consider friends criticize me, has something negative to say about what I’m doing that doesn’t concern them. I know I gotta find better friends, which I have.
I can’t seem to stop focusing on the negatives either. My partner always sees the positives in everything while I’m always thinking it’s doomsday. Even the little things makes me feel like it’s the end of the world and I know where it comes from. The only time I’m positive fully is at shows but imposter syndrome kicks in. I wanna learn to be more positive about things when I am just dealing with personal issues and regular adulting problems. I feel like a tall child, I felt forced to take on something I was too young to handle and feel like I’m just good for making people happy.
How do I stop being so negative and quit wanting to feel like I have to please everyone? I feel stuck.