I’m crushing hard on a my female friends who’s a witness (I’m also female)
My JW friend gives me a lot of mixed signals and I don’t know if I’m reading too much into it
I neeeeeed advice because I honestly don’t know if I’m overthinking this or if something is really there.
I have a very close friend who became a Jehovah’s Witness around 3 years ago. Before becoming a JW, she told me that she liked women too, so I’m assuming she may be bisexual or at least had attraction to women in the past.
The reason I’m confused is because she acts very affectionate with me, but it feels more intense than a normal friendship sometimes.
She touches me a lot for little reasons
hugs me often
tells me “I love you”
calls me beautiful, sexy, sensual, etc.
gets much more affectionate and emotionally open when we’re alone
but around other people she becomes more shy and reserved
She’s also opened up to me about very personal things, like wanting to leave her house and even saying she’d want to live with me someday.
Last night we were both writing romantic poems for fun. I wrote mine first, about a fantasy lover. After reading mine, she wrote one called “Amarte en silencio” (Loving you in silence) and later compared our poems by saying mine was about a fantasy lover and hers was about “secret love.”
What really stood out to me is that her poem literally had lines like:
“Quizás solo sea una amiga…”
(“Maybe I’m only a friend…”)
and it was about hidden love and secret feelings.
I honestly don’t know if this is:
1 just creative writing
2 very affectionate friendship 3 or if she may have feelings she doesn’t know how to express because of being a JW
I know JW beliefs can make same-sex feelings and relationships very complicated, so I’m trying not to assume or pressure her.
For ex-JWs or people who have been in similar situations… does this sound familiar? Am I reading too much into this?!
Edit : I’m a jw pimo