The Storm
“Through fire, nature is reborn whole”
Relistening (again) and noticed something new in the first entry of Journal 7:
“Storms are ominous portents in literature, but when I forced myself from the rumpled tousle of my bed and looked out the window, there was no gloom or ill fate to be had, as if the strong-handed rain had only been intent on washing away the soot and grime and dust of a long winter. It was not gentle, but it was good. And I was glad for it. Now I’m feeling almost eager to see Pierce. To speak with him.”
I missed this before, the idea of the storm being a cleansing experience that washes away the gloom (including the “soot and grime and dust”).
This entry is on March 1st, the first entry that follows the first kiss. The description of this storm made me think of the imagery of Emma’s dream at the end of Journal 8, as the wind and storm are all around her and she clings to the burnt and broken tree. I do believe the tree in this dream to represent Pierce, or a symbol of life that includes Pierce, like her heart or her future or a sense of home, if/when anything happens to Pierce or LLH, or both. All of the entries with the strong wind, the storm, the rain, the changes in atmosphere - these are all Pierce. But the thunder and the lightning? I am starting to believe more and more that the fire and the lightning are Emma. Her emotions, her actions, her conflicts - all of the fire she carries inside her. I know I’ve already said this elsewhere, but Emma seems like the fire.
Journal 7 (3/1/84) - after the first kiss
“Volleys of rain came down half the night. Gusts of wind like cannon fire shaking the windows, as if the storm were being thrown against Lapis Lazuli by the handfuls. Warlike and belligerent, only a thin roof between myself and each clap of thunder. The battle raged until dawn, water streaming off the roof and down the window like an extra sheet of glass, distorting the grey morning.”
Journal 8 (6/30/84) - after Nettle
“Then storm and rain, come with lightning. The tree struck…. marked with lines of spent fire. In the rain, beside the tree… l threw my arms around the trunk and held it, weeping. The night persisted, a cold rain lashing over the hill. Still I clung to the tree. After what seemed like an abyss of hours, the rain abated. The wind also. And I, wet through, pulled myself away. I pressed my hands against the damp, black wood. Tracing every split, every scar. Hours passed. I do not know why I stayed. Then the sky growing lighter. A line of gold on the horizon…..
….And then the impossible: hope. Profound, peaceful hope. Lifting a finger to the crevice in the wall, I knew. I knew that I would give the hope to Pierce, if I could. Every golden coin of it.”