u/Machina-Dea

This is more of an art related rant but I think it fits here as it’s affecting my mental health quite badly.

Growing up I drew A LOT, like it was rare I didn’t draw for a day. For… honestly the past couple years I’ve been struggling to draw even semi regularly. I never know what to draw and I never really feel inspired.

As a result nowadays I might draw like once a week which is not enough to keep my skills sharp so I’m slowly regressing which is making me not want to draw even more.

Today I felt somewhat inspired after watching the gameoverse pilot and decided to draw kit in the toga (think that’s the name of it) from the end credits of the pilot as i thought her outfit was cute. After a bit of trial and error I got really frustrated and deleted the File for the artwork I was working on.

When I was younger I thought I could become an artist, i looked up to artists and animators like jazza, Jaidenanimations, oddonesout, Sam yang, loish, feefal, marc brunet the kind of forerunners of the art community on the internet. And now I look at myself and think I’m nowhere near their skill level.

I can’t produce art consistently and I can’t produce a consistent quality of art, it’s making me wonder if this is something I should continue pursuing. It makes me wonder if this was some kind of years long phase that just wasn’t meant to be.

I can’t find that spark of creativity I had when I was younger it feels like it died during Covid, I never feel inspired I just sit and stare at the page with frustration except for short bursts of like a week every so often I can draw a bit.

I’m also wondering if my antidepressants are affecting my lack of inspiration / creativity. I think this problem got worse once I started fluoxetine but I can’t function properly without them so if they are the cause I’ve gotta choose between being somewhat happy and functional or between being able to create kind of like I used to.

I don’t know where I’m going with this rant, I just need it off my chest and to anyone who read through this mess. Thank you, and to those who may be able to offer me some advice, even more so thank you.

Growing up I drew A LOT, like it was rare I didn’t draw for a day. For… honestly the past couple years I’ve been struggling to draw even semi regularly. I never know what to draw and I never really feel inspired.

As a result nowadays I might draw like once a week which is not enough to keep my skills sharp so I’m slowly regressing which is making me not want to draw even more.

Today I felt somewhat inspired after watching the gameoverse pilot and decided to draw kit in the toga (think that’s the name of it) from the end credits of the pilot as i thought her outfit was cute. After a bit of trial and error I got really frustrated and deleted the File for the artwork I was working on.

When I was younger I thought I could become an artist, i looked up to artists and animators like jazza, Jaidenanimations, oddonesout, Sam yang, loish, feefal, marc brunet the kind of forerunners of the art community on the internet. And now I look at myself and think I’m nowhere near their skill level.

I can’t produce art consistently and I can’t produce a consistent quality of art, it’s making me wonder if this is something I should continue pursuing. It makes me wonder if this was some kind of years long phase that just wasn’t meant to be.

I can’t find that spark of creativity I had when I was younger it feels like it died during Covid, I never feel inspired I just sit and stare at the page with frustration except for short bursts of like a week every so often I can draw a bit.

I’m also wondering if my antidepressants are affecting my lack of inspiration / creativity. I think this problem got worse once I started fluoxetine but I can’t function properly without them so if they are the cause I’ve gotta choose between being somewhat happy and functional or between being able to create kind of like I used to.

I don’t know where I’m going with this rant, I just need it off my chest and to anyone who read through this mess. Thank you, and to those who may be able to offer me some advice, even more so thank you.