u/Macknandcheesen

Hii!!! Unfortunately I really really don’t want to mask but I know if I want to get a good job eventually I’ll have to learn. I really have no idea how to conform to neurotypicals nor society and I’ve never really had any interest in learning to mask until now.

So! Continuing on! I got diagnosed with type 2 adhd but I really think I have combined (which I wouldn’t be surprised since that’s the most common if I remember correctly…)
And I’m super scared that will affect how people perceive me in the real world when I get a job and I really can’t afford to get turned down for the job that I want with how much effort I’m putting in for this.

And before you say anything about masking doesn’t help hide that you seem different from your regular neurotypical. I’m aware. And I know it can cause anxiety as well but I really only want to mask when I absolutely need to since I will be working with others.

I’m really bad at staying still, controlling what I say (especially if someone says something that I take offense to like ex: homophobia), and I’m super duper over the top expressive with my body language and personality.

And I really regret not knowing how to mask earlier. And I don’t really have any ways to like calm down my adhd really? I mean I have fidgets but I’m not sure if Delta Airlines would be lenient with that. :/

And I’m scared about going to work on one of bad days where my stims get really horrible that nothing calms me down. (It rarely happens but it can happen out of the blue moon and I’d rat not get into the specifics of my stims since it’s really embarrassing for me) Or if I get into old habits and let my thoughts overwhelm me when I think to much into things.

And I would do anything for this job, even at a bit of my own expense (Yes I’m aware that’s kinda self destructive of me to say) since I really can’t find me being happy in any other part of the workforce without going to collage and with how I preform in school I don’t think I could keep up with how much work collage gives me. I’m already drained from regular high school… (I despise of this dreaded school system UGHH)

I’m also really scared I’m going to lash out (I usually have great control of my emotions but when I get overstimulated that’s a different story) at someone with being around people that long with not much sleep or alone time. Or that If I told my hirer that I have adhd amongst other things, that I would’t be taken seriously or accommodated.

(Also sorry if it seems I’m attention seeking. I really do have adhd. I’m not trying to fake it at all, plus I don’t know why anyone would want to have adhd. I mean there are definitely good parts of neurodivergence for me and if I had to choose it again I would because that’s all I know but that definitely doesn’t mean that the bad doesn’t outweigh the good.)

Hi! I’m relatively new to the fandom and the games, and by new I mean I’ve only recently picked up a passion for the games the past 2 weeks or so. But I have played some of Bayonetta 1 (I got stuck on a boss halfway through and called it quits for now) and I finished Bayonetta 2, and I just started Bayonetta 3. 20 minutes into the game and I really really disliked it, especially after that cliffhanger that went nowhere in the end credits of Bayonetta 2 where her father puts on that mask and kinda looks menacing after sealing Asier in his body. So when I picked up the 3rd game I was like okay we are gonna have to kill her father preparing myself for some tears y’know. But instead we got this weird alien invasion thing going on and then Bayonetta dies despite just facing off with LITERAL God the last game, so it makes no sense that she would die when she’s that strong even without the left eye of darkness. And I feel like the character designs were also kind of mid. And from what I understand Viola is the daughter of Luka and Bayonetta but she looks absolutely nothing like either of them, plus Luka and Bayonetta together is kinda weird to me considering she’s technically known him since he was a kid. (I’m not sure it the Luka x Cereza thing is right because I really didn’t look into it that much due to lack of interest in the 3rd game) And it could just be me but the whole alt Bayonetta universe thing doesn’t make sense to me at all. Not only that but the gameplay feels a lot different. and I don’t know if I’m hating too early and I really wanted to give the game a chance and I don’t know if my hopes about how the game would turn out weren’t what I was expecting or if it really is a bad game. So I was wondering if the game gets better later on and the story will make more sense after playing it more or should I just cut my losses and finish that boss in Bayonetta 1 and start Cereza and the Lost Demon??