Sexually frustrated
Hi, I’m 20 in the northern Nevada area. I’m in a 4 year committed relationship with a women I love to death.
But I’m bisexual. I get the craving for a dick in my mouth every so often and have to do mental gymnastics to stop myself from cheating on my women. During breaks in the relationship I have explored and I know what I’m missing out on lol. I jerk off to gay porn and get my itch off that way but it’s just so frustrating tk see men id suck the soul out of and not be able to do anything about it.
Once again, I love my women and I throughly enjoy sex with her. Just I have these fantasies I can’t seem to shake. No she doesn’t know I’m bisexual and has made a number of remarks that she is 1000% against ever opening the relationship.
Any advice? I know long term id rather a family and kids then to be only with men. Hence why I’m still with her.