Am i a narcissist or a bad person since I am self aware?
How do I differentiate between the two?
I know people say, “If you think you’re a narcissist, you’re not” but this is a genuine question. I’m quite self aware of my character and my actions… I’m not a good person and I’m aware of that. My actions hurt people and I can’t find it in me to care- instead I’ll always find some way to justify myself even if it only makes sense to me. When I hurt someone and they express their pain I get extremely offended or disgusted and victimise myself like forever. Like I am aware of what I’m doing and my thoughts. When I cheat or sleep with someone’s partner, lie or manipulate people, I am aware that I am doing it and the pain it will cause, it’s not necessarily a subconscious act. I know it will hurt someone and that’s why I do it (because I know it’s wrong). People say narcissists don’t know or don’t acknowledge their narcissistic tendencies, but since I acknowledge my bad behaviour does it absolve me from being a narcissist and just makes me a bad person rather?
Genuine question…