Lost movie
I’ve been trying for years to find a movie I watched as a kid (around 2013–2015), and I remember it extremely vividly, but I have never found it again.
Here is everything I remember:
- It looked like an older film, but I believe it was made somewhere between the late 1990s and 2000s.
- It felt like an obscure experimental European movie (possibly French, German, Eastern European, or similar).
- The movie takes place roughly in a period setting somewhere between the 1950s–1980s.
- Main character is a young white man, skinny build, dark medium-length hair.
Plot:
The protagonist suffered severe childhood trauma.
- He was sexually abused repeatedly by his uncle when he was a child.
- I specifically remember a disturbing flashback scene where the uncle enters his bedroom while he pretends to be asleep and forces him to perform oral sex.
- His mother suffered from depression.
- His father was violent/abusive.
As an adult he develops severe depression or mental illness.
- His psychologist recommends that he voluntarily admit himself into a psychiatric hospital/asylum.
Most of the movie happens inside this asylum.
Inside the hospital:
- Staff members are cruel and abusive toward patients.
- The protagonist is rebellious and often refuses to obey staff.
- As punishment he is locked alone in a room for long periods.
- I remember a scene where they give him food (possibly rice) full of worms.
Important female character:
Inside the asylum he falls in love with a female patient who genuinely believes she is Marilyn Monroe.
Details:
- Platinum blonde hair exactly like Marilyn Monroe
- Same hairstyle
- She smoked cigarettes using a long black cigarette holder, just like Marilyn Monroe
Important disturbing scene:
One male guard sexually abuses this Marilyn Monroe patient repeatedly.
During an escape plan:
- The female patient intentionally cooperates sexually with the abusive guard to distract him.
- The protagonists somehow drug/sedate him while he is abusing her.
Ending:
The protagonist organizes a riot/escape attempt with several patients.
During the escape:
- A guard stabs or severely injures his eye
- He appears to die
Final scene:
He survives, escapes successfully, and the movie ends with him free, wearing a black pirate-style eyepatch over one eye.
I have searched for this movie for YEARS and never found it.
It is NOT mainstream Hollywood.
I strongly suspect obscure European psychological cinema.
Does anyone recognize this film?