I felt not-heard yesterday in my own friend group.
Context: I (22M) am usually the listener of my friend group. I don't really have any social life outside of this 4 member group. I live with one of them in a PG.
What happened? : We were out for dinner last night, and as usual we were talking, I was listening.
Whenever I tried to engage in the conversation they just sorta ignored me and continued their conversation. The conversation led to a point that they ranted their daily problems. I too, felt something to share which had been bothering me for a couple of months.
I like a guy in our PG whom they are friends with. I avoided playing with them sometimes because he was playing with them and seeing him would create a sense of uneasiness/viraha/yearning for me knowing that I can't be with him.
While walking i told them this, they asked "Do you like him ?". I replied "yes". Then, then, they, just, continued their own conversation.
It was my first time expressing myself and accepting this in front of anyone else. I was my first time trying to be vulnerable about this. And they, they, just ignored it!
I never feels heard among them.