Tried Going to meetings
I, 25M tried attending meetings to deal with my sex addiction and felt like they could help however I stopped going because I didn’t expect there to be so many child molesters there. I understand we all have our problems I just found it difficult to be in their presence as I was molested from the age of 6 to 13 by an older aunt and babysitter. My first time becoming aware of sex I was 5 or 6 when I found a porn tape in my mother’s closet and I would sneak and stare at the cover when she was at work.
That coupled with the molestation I think turned me into the man I am today. My step dad gave me my first condom at 12 or 11 and my uncle taught me to “enjoy variety” rather than staying committed in a relationship. I masturbated about 8 times a day from the age of 13 til about 23. I’m still at the point of at least once a day and my thoughts are almost always on sex if I’m not actively doing something. I have a girlfriend we own a home and have 2 beautiful children and I am afraid I’m allowing my addiction to get in the way of that. I’d love to attend meetings and learn healthy ways to cope I just don’t know how to be in the same room as people who have hurt people the same way I was hurt so young. Any advice?.