Desire
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Due to the medication I was on for a long long time, I have no desire for my other half. Now that I am off the medication.. no desire for him has returned. It's the opposite to be honest. And due to him bothering me daily about desiring him... It has causes any kind of desire that may surface to disappear. I have told him these conversations and any kind of pressure stops the desire to come back. Yet he keeps bringing it up... Almost daily. The Councilor has told him that it isn't helping... I've told him it isn't helping. Yet he still does it. Idk what I'm suppose to do anymore. I feel like I am a failure. No matter what I do.. isn't good enough... Yet my friends and mental health worker have told me I'm not failing.. I am good enough. That he needs to be patient. Which he has to a point... But it isn't enough... These conversations about the desire/sex/intimacy need to stop. Period. But it won't.....it's destroying me on the inside...I've had thoughts of ending my life because there is no end in sight. Idk what to do anymore. I dread going home... But have to for the dogs.
TL;DR: Partner keeps pressuring talks about desire/sex/intimacy and it’s making me shut down more.