medical anxiety post-TTI
TW: discussion of skin checks/strip searches/all that
in 2022 i was in the TTI for 3 months and was strip searched 6 times. i have an upcoming doctors appointment and i am so scared i will have to take off my clothes and the doctor will look at my naked body.
in the tti we were fully naked, no underwear or anything. once they gave me a tiny towel (i’m talking maybe a square foot) but the rest i was standing there moving all around in weird positions showing every inch
last year i had to get an MRI and even though needing to change into a gown just due to needing to avoid certain materials for safety in the machine and they gave me 2 gowns to cover front and back and i stayed fully covered the whole time i fucking lost it and cried and screamed. it’s a really important appointment and i really need to go but i feel like there’s no way i can do it, does anyone have advice or ways to cope or something