It’s getting bad
TRIGGER WARNING: EXTREME DEPRESSION AND SUICIDAL IDEATION
NSFW: Being trans is giving me the big sad and I wanna die. Pretty girls make me jealous. Nothing is real.
Everyday my gender dysphoria grows worse. I am too poor to transition. I’m fighting for my life everyday. I have lost every person that ever mattered to me, every time I see a transitioned woman it makes me so jealous and envious. I’m genuinely so close to my breaking point I’m not sure how much more I can take. I’ve been asking God a lot recently why I was even born…
Nothing seems to ever work out in favor of me being myself, I feel locked in a life that isn’t even mine and I am genuinely clawing at the corners of my mind. Everyday I feel myself turning inside out and losing what little sanity I have left.
I genuinely need help. I don’t wanna keep living if I have to live out a false narrative