u/Massive-Dot-3643

what will you do when you are in your suicidal thoughts and have no one to share? I actually still have my parents but they are the cause and if I ever look depressed, they will start mocking and blame me from being too far from the religion. I also have a boyfriend but he's just.. there? he loves me but since I'm a humourous and talkative gf, he asked me to change the topic so I won't get too stressed and started to make a joke. I just have no one to share. back to the question, so what should I do?