u/Massive_Revenue_408

I’ve always enjoyed drawing but it was always like off and on but everytime I came back to drawing I would get a breakthrough and improve but I quit for awhile and around this time last year when I came back I tried to draw and I just see what’s wrong and immediately lose motivation and want to give up (quick note I’ve always had a pretty good understanding of stuff after watching a video about it like I watched 1 video breaking down a hand and I could just instinctively draw hands after that and drawing complex shapes came naturally I could just visualize and draw those shapes and I’ve always been that friend who points out mistakes and explain to them how it’s wrong mainly with anatomy) and now whenever I draw I just can’t visualize the shapes like I did before i couldn’t do things that always came naturally to me… it feels so demotivating I usually stopped drawing when I hit an art block and due to that art block I would try to draw and it would feel off so I took a break I tried to draw something again I felt worse than I was before and it kinda just spiraled down to where I’m wondering how how how did I do it before? It was always so natural to me and now I just can’t I look at my old drawings where I was practicing shapes drawing them at different angles the first time I did it it was easy it just felt so easy to estimate and now I try to do the same drill and I just end up drawing ereasing draw erase erase put my pencil down and just hit my head
It feels like my understanding is higher than my skill level even though that prob isn’t possible it’s just I see I know how it’s wrong but why can’t I draw it I envy people who can draw whatever and feel happy about their drawing while all I can do is kick myself for my mistakes if it wasn’t obvious I have a kind of perfectionism in a way… and now I feel like I should just start again but I just don’t know where to start back then I always had this intuition but now it’s almost as if that intuition just disappeared… (another note I have adhd idk if that matters or not)