u/Master-Wafer6840

Puryagaba nalang jud akong maingon! Excited pa kaayo ko kay nindot sa pang dungog nga sa hotel ang venue but during the rehearsal, ultimo mga gadala sa rehearsal confused kung unsay buhaton?? LOL grabe ka unorganized. Karon pajud ko naka try mo graduate nga wala gi run through tanan during rehearsals. Unya ang mga bangko wala mn lang hatagig space apart from each other, mura mig mga sardinas!

Naa pay on the day sa event nga ilang lobot ra guro naka dungog sa background music. Most boring ass graduation i’ve ever been to. Mahal ang tuition and grad clearance fees unya ang venue walay ka design design. Mas nindot pamag set up ang naay lamay oy.

Unya ang invitation card kay printed ra nga colored paper??? LOLOLOL grabe ka pobre ba. Not scented paper or any type of special paper pero yes na yes sa colored paper nga baratohon HAHAHAHAHAHAH

wala lang. gapawas ra sa kalagot kay once in a lifetime experience rajud unta pero way lami.

Problem/Goal: Help. I’m seriously having dark thoughts to hurt my dad for being such a gambling addict.

Context: Yung papa ko is a gambling addict for years. I won’t provide so much details as some of my cousins lurk here in reddit. Growing up, super abusive niya sa mom ko like physically. As in bugbog sarado palagi si mama but she stayed for us. We went thru a lot of financial troubles rin cause dad would make a lot of excuses before to not pay for school just to fund his gambling. Yung tipong iiyak na ako sa adviser ko just to let me take the exams kasi noon pag walang exam permit or d nakapagbayad, they won’t let u take the exam. Both my mother and brother attempted suicide a lot of times na din before kasi they’re losing hope na and talagang hirap na hirap na kami.

Ang sakit isipin na yung coworkers ng papa ko who has the same level of position that he has ay sobrang yaman na pero kami lang naghihirap cause my dad gambles his money away. Ilang years namin yan tiniis ng mama ko at kapatid ko hanggang sa dumating yung time na parang kumalma na si papa na mag sugal and was able to pay off my brother’s school debts and salamat sa Diyos nakapagtapos na siya.

Now that I am graduating, i learned recently lang na papa gambled 500k. I wa so furious. Yung ilang yrs na hatred at galit ko sa kanya na binaon ko sa limot ay muling bumalik pero mas sobra ngayon. Yung tipong ang sarap niyang saktan or tapusin. How dare he? Ilang taon naming tiniis yung hirap, humilitation, and hunger before but i stayed strong for my mom and brother. Naka luag luag na sana kami but now he’s back to gambling? I have lost total respect na sa sariling ama ko. I see him as a stranger now and I am seriously having dark thoughts, it’s like my mind is itching to off this person cause that’s the easiest way i can think of para mawala na problema namin. Ang baboy niya para gawin ulit yun. Is he planning to drive us all to ruin again?

Previous Attempts: None. Just my mind. It’s not right. I’m so consumed with anger rn that I cannot think straight. Pls i need ur thoughts.