ADHD evaluation changed how I understood ten years of mental health treatment and I wish someone had asked the question sooner
I've been in the mental health system since I was 22, depression, anxiety, a brief detour into a bipolar II diagnosis I was on medication for for two years before a different psychiatrist said she wasn't sure the original diagnosis was right
what nobody in ten years suggested was ADHD, not one person, not a doctor, not a psychiatrist, not a therapist, and I'm a woman in my early thirties who functions and holds down a job and is verbal and self aware so I suppose I didn't look like whatever they were looking for
I got an ADHD evaluation last year after someone in this community described their experience in a way that sounded exactly like mine, it came back positive, and the psychologist explained something I hadn't understood: a significant part of what I'd been treating as depression was likely the result of ADHD related chronic underperformance, the ongoing gap between what I was capable of and what I was actually producing because my brain couldn't bridge it the way I expected it to, and the low mood was downstream, not primary
I'm not saying my depression wasn't real, I'm saying it had a cause that nobody looked for