u/MaxCany3

I was wondering if anyone knows of the cheapest place to get any sort of food that will last me a while. I running on food stamps and it just isnt enough.
Im chronically ill and can barely get out of bed some days. Hell im typing this in bed rn. I need some place in or around Glen Burnie because i cant really walk or be in a car for too long.
I still need to be getting balanced meals, at least a bit balanced. I thought i had enough food stocked up from last month to last me till my next food stamp deposit and i just didnt. Ive been eating maybe once a day. ive used up all things that can be made and this is a monthly occurrence. I plan everything out. I budget as much as i can i go to so many stores for all the cheapest stuff. Ive done everything i can think of.

Im completely desperate for help right now. If anyone can help me in any way please reply or send me a message! I will take all the help i can get. I just cant live like this anymore

TLDR: my partner is making me feel crazy for asking him to stop talking under his breath. I have asked multiple times for him to stop and he refuses. He been extremely rude about things and has called me names multiple times. I dont know what to do..

I have been with my partner for a bit over a year now. He moved in with me a couple months ago which has been better for our relationship. Unfortunately im noticing things im unsure about. He has the terrible habit of saying things under his breathe after the smallest disagreements.
I have REPEATEDLY asked him not to say things under his breath. I find it incredibly disrespectful and rude. If he has something he needs to say he needs to speak up or dont say anything at all. I do absolutely everything he asked me to do to make him more comfortable in conversation/ communication about serious matters.

Example being, Saturday evening we were preordering food to go pick up and the app wasn’t working on his phone and he already had the whole order in. We used my phone instead and im pretty slow due to multiple mental health issues and major brain fog, so i have to do some things slower. He was trying to give me all the he put on the order and i kept forgetting wha he was saying cuz i was trying to put stuff in. I didnt realize he said he got a sandwich on top of the one i had put in for myself. He proceeded to call me stupid, i told him i didnt know he said he wanted one. He said that i did know and im just stupid and not paying attention. I was, i was just trying to get all the stuff in fast and genuinely didnt hear him.

A couple hours ago, (yes this is important) i told him my chapstick fell under the bed and i tried to get it but it ended up going further under. So i asked at some point tonight or tomorrow if we could hold the mattress up so i could get it. He kinda huffed and said i guess. I just left it at that. He sits down in his chair and looks over to me to see where the xbox controller was. He looked at me a little sideways and said “have you been using my controller all day?” I said yeah because i couldn’t find mine. He asked if i looked for it, i said yes because thats how i knew my chapstick fell under the bed but i didnt see the controller. He got decently upset about me using his controller and said “well i hope its not fucking dead” i said well i only turned it on to change videos every so often other then that it was OFF. He proceeds to mumble something about me under his breath. I asked him to tell me what he said and he told me to fuck off. He ignored me for five minutes then had the nerve to ask me if i wanted help finding the controller and getting my chapstick. Me extremely irritated told him why in the world would i want his help right now after he was rude to me and saying things under his breath.
Hes now asleep and we didnt say a single word to each other. No apology. Just nothing.

This isnt the first time any of this has happened. I feel like in going insane and that im doing something wrong. I have been in a handful of extremely abusive relationships where i was gaslight, beaten, SA’d and many other unfortunate things. I have an extremely hard time noticing if certain things are Red flags/worrying behaviors from partners.

If anyone can help me at all figure out what to do. Or even just how to talk to him on how we can communicate better.