u/Maximum-Violinist-42

I had OCD for a long time and when it got really bad recently I researched on how ERP works and tried it myself without a therapist. Each time an intrusive thought comes I try to not engage with it. It's been 4 months, what I did notice is that I spend less time on ruminating and more time on things that really matter. However, it's tough. I'm in pretty shitty OCD days now and not engaging with the terrifying thoughts make me feel guilty all day long (with breaks when I'm busy ofc). I don't know if I'm doing this right, should it be this hard?