After ditching anthroposophy for a while, I decided that our life trajectory is the lesser guardian.
All our traumas and bad luck are a result of our past karma and repressed feelings. The same way that the lesser guardian is described.
To dissolve the traumas and bad luck? We face it and feel the terror. Just like the lesser guardian.
I know that this subreddit is dedicated to affirming literal Steiner and what i did is translate his words into something he didn't say. If any of you were of the same mindset as I then there'd be fewer reasons to be here so, what i am looking for is not to be agreed with, but this is something i needed to know in the past when i struggled to understand what the lesser guardian is.
And only after this did i understand what equanimity means. It means to stop avoiding feeling terror. And i realized that every successful prayer, for me personally, was accompanied with pain of what would happen if i fail. I think that this pain is the payment of karma that otherwise would have met me in the outer reality.