I want to break up but I also don’t and don’t know if I can bring myself to do it.
Me M18 and my gf F19 have been together 9 months.
Over the last few weeks/months I have felt the need to break up on and off. I get easily agitated by her and I don’t know why. I’ve said this to her and she asked if there’s things she can change or we can could change about the relationship but I don’t see a way to settle my thoughts on the issue. She said she’s not going to beg me to stay as she has already done that after I tried to break up before on a different issue ( lying about her past bfs). She is a very loving gf and she says she’s wants to marry me and have a family with me but I feel weird when she talks about that stuff. The relationship is a good one but she just annoys me when she does certain things, certain things I used to find amusing now just annoys me and I don’t want to bottle it up and explode on her and I also can’t bring myself to break up with her because I do love her and her family but there’s something wrong that I can’t pin point and it’s driving me crazy
I don’t want to lead her on or try have this conversation again in the future and I just push her away trying to fix it or potentially make the mistake of breaking up and really regretting it.
How can I manage this?