Feel like I'm in complete hell and pain management may have ruined my brain
For context I'm 35m who got diagnosed with multiple myeloma last year. I had 5 back fractures and still having issues with the facet joints which an ablation has been a complete game changer. I've been on 62 MCG of Fent patches changed every 3 days and 120 MGs of oxycodone as needed. I've tried cutting the oxycodone back as I realllllly want to get off the meds. But IF I don't take any of the oxycodone I have ZERO and I mean ZERO energy and motivation. As soon as I take one boom we are back in the game!
Is this normal? Has anyone else dealt with this? Am I completely fucked and stuck on this medicine for good? I just want to be able to go throughout my day normal without nodding out and having to reach for the bottle to get my energy.
Any input or advice on this from people who have cut back or anything would be GREATLY appreciated. I truly feel like I'm in hell.