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Have you been to that point of finally getting rid of the fantasy? Actually throwing away the items,
Deleting the photos, blocking. I’m there and it’s so scary. How does life move forward from there? When the fantasy wears off, when all hope is gone of union , how do you continue to make sense of life without them? having a DM that uses porn and instagram models as his distraction is the most brutal painful thing. I know it means we need to heal ourselves but seeing him for who he is now and not this magical version that was working on himself and towards union is so sad. For six years now I have healed a little, then looked back at his socials and every time I check back he is just disappointing and hurting me. It’s so painful when you get to that rock bottom where you have no other excuse for them anymore. They show you exactly who they are and I have to decide I won’t tolerate this pain any longer. I just don’t understand how you move forward without them. I’ve officially given up hope. Seeing he isn’t do anything at all to make changes is just so painful. Do you just block them on all platforms and live for eternity wondering what the hell this was? Wondering why this happened? I’ve spent 6 years on a journey that made sense until now. I feel nothing but anger and disgust. Like I’ve been in a delusion…I don’t see the love in them picking other woman over and over. The pain is unreal

I’m 6 years in, several separations, I’ve had so much growth, joy, hope but I’ve realized I’m stuck in a loop of waiting and longing. Everytime I look back and slip up, check his socials he is following more woman, more half naked models, the pain I feel I can’t even put into words. He went back to his ex and lives a fake life and seems to have done absolutely nothing. yet I’m stuck in this horrific pain, I can’t talk to anyone cause logically this doesn’t make sense. thats I’m destroyed by someone who I have seen once in three years and haven’t spoke to in a year. I’m finally to the point of full surrender, I can’t take the pain. ive realized for 6 years he has given me breadcrumbs and hovered but is also doing any and everything he wants to in the 3d. I dont see how you ever forgive this behavior and one day dont resent them? I will never understand why he picks other woman. I’m at square one 6 years in and never have felt this sad. All of this work, hope etc, I feel him, I know this is real yet have nothing to show for this but pain and suffering. I’m done, how do you move on???? why do they do this? the lack of closure is maddening……do you reach out? block? i just need the pain to stop….ive done all the things btw, focused on myself, journals, meditating, prayed and prayed for my love for him to go away…..I just have nothing left energetically…this is a living nightmare. I can’t accept this reality that you can have a twin all these years that doesn’t choose you……..

good afternoon everyone, Im trying to narrow my options and find a program. I’m gettinf discouraged, I work full time during the day. I can’t quit my job it’s not an option. I always thought you would work and go to school in the evenings now I’m realizing all hours you have to complete interning and most programs I see mention that being day only, no nights or weekends. I know I can’t be the only person to work full time days and get their masters. What am I missing? is this not possible? thank you I’m advance

I have a question, as an older adult in my 40s, I’m having trouble finding a program. I don’t know any of my undergrad professors, my current job is awful, I highly doubt my boss would write a letter for me, the state school option isn’t gonna work, they expect me to retake under grad courses first etc, not doing that. I have a 3.4 gpa I’m not paying to retake under grad pre requisites. I just feel like giving up at my age, I don’t understand why this is all so difficult. How do older people on a budget mange this? any programs you suggest? I tried Walden now reading the reviews not doing it. Any suggestions appreciated