in the middle of the night, I find myself going back to our memories replaying the moments we once had, and missing something Iknow I can't have again
I will wait for ur message because u're the only person I love to talk everyday 🥹
Why after years of cutting ties with someone, do I suddenly miss them so much even though the relationship was toxic 🥺😭
i don't even know where all this pressure came from. i just know i'm tired in a way sleep doesn't fix. it feels like i've been holding everything together for too long and now i'm starting to lose my grip without even noticing. i still show up, still act like i'm okay. but inside i feel off like i'm slowly losing balance. and i don't even know how to say it out loud without sounding dramatic
The more you understand this world, the more you destroy yourself and that's why you are happy and smart
not to be sensitive, to act like things don't bother me, to pretend that words don't cut and actions don't hurt, but the truth is i feel everything deeply. i notice the small changes, the tone in someone's voice, the way they look at me differently, and it gets to me. i tell myself not to care, not to overthink, but my heart doesn't listen. i end up replaying moments in my head, wondering if i did something wrong. it's exhausting to feel so much, but at the same time, it's who i am. i try not to be sensitive, but sometimes the smallest things break me more than i want to admit it's hard to sleep at night when your mind is full of unsaid thoughts. when the world finally becomes quiet and there's nothing left to distract you, everything you tried
to ignore starts coming back. all the words you wanted to say but never did, all the feelings you kept hidden, all the conversations that only happened in your head. you keep replaying moments over and over, wondering if things would have been different if you had just said what you felt. but instead, you stayed quiet, and now those thoughts live in your mind every night when you're trying to rest.
sometimes it's not the memories that keep you awake, it's the things that were never said, the feelings that were never understood, and the questions that will probably never get an answer and somehow, the night always feels longer when your heart is full of things you never got the chance to say