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I’m 42 years old. I was still an identical twin still trying to figure that out lost my brother almost 5 years ago. I’ve never quite been the same. It’s caused me problems in every area of life. My brother was a social one, he made friends for me. He’s also who I spoke to. I’ve been with my wife 15 years, married five. even at this point, I feel like our relationship struggles because she doesn’t understand. I don’t have that person to talk to anymore. We could always speak and hear one another. I feel guilt every day of not being there for him in the way that I should have. Just needed to say it out loud. I miss him in a way that I can’t explain.