u/Melody-0-Soul

Boys, girls, how we doing? Hope well.

This is a post for whoever needs a friend or for whoever thinks I’m worth befriending. A lil about me: I’m in my mid 20s Omani from Muscat, don’t study nor work so a failure I guess. Don’t really have any hobbies, but if You were to put a gun to my head and tell me to name a few (I wouldn’t care ._.), hah ya.. but umm it’s gonna be gaming and music I guess, and umm ya, that’s really all. I literally can’t live without music, and I’m talking about the real music 90s-80s and below (the golden age). Anything after that I don’t consider it to be music and can’t feel it. The real music that can be heard and felt by the soul has died a long time ago, and all that’s left are the memories of it, and I intend to keep it alive deep down inside of me (music is the only thing that makes me feel sum). It’s just my opinion, don’t get all defensive and shit…

I like the beach and go to it quite often (((quite often))), although lately I’ve been going less and less often than I used to. I play, well… I used to play all kind of shit when I was younger and had friends, but for years now I’ve just been playing random games where I don’t necessarily need a buddy to play with me, like Apex and Tekken. I do love Minecraft because it’s a nostalgic game, but haven’t played it in years and playing it alone kinda hurts (I haven’t really been playing anything lately, I just don’t feel like playing). I always felt like wanting to go camping out in no where like the desert or sum كشته يعنيfor an extended period of time but never did.

Now shit gets a lil personal, but obviously I got to let You guys know and hope You guys understand. I got severe social anxiety, I can’t handle the public at all. I believe that years of isolation created that, so whenever I go out, being only the beach, I go at odd hours where it’s completely empty. So, an introvert. My communication skills are pretty, pretty, pretty, pretty bad, or quite straight forward, meaning I can’t keep a conversation alive. I’m the kind of person to just answer a question then just stop talking and rarely aks one. And if I do aks one, once I get the answer, I find it very hard to move forward from there You know (like a normal person)….

I haven’t had a friend or anyone to talk to in like 8-9 years. No cousins, no family, nada—just the family I got in my house, and we’re not even that close. Never celebrated any of the traditional celebrations ever since, so like 9 years. I guess life just kinda played ball with me and I lost. I ain’t perfect. I do drink occasionally but rarely (last time I drank was a while ago, I lost a special person in my life and needed a drink… or at least I thought they were special). I smoke (ciggy) and don’t pray. I’m not proud of that, but it is what it is. Never touched a drug in my life and will never (unless if You wanna call cigarettes and scotch drugs then ._.). If You so happen to use any paraphernalia, I don’t mind and won’t look at You any differently. I might advise You but won’t step out of line. So ummm ya, that’s me.

PS: please just Omanis 24 years old and above, obviously I do speak and understand Arabic but since I went years without speaking the language it feels weird coming out of my mouth so I almost never speak it (English is my mother’s language), what matters is what you’re looking for, if you’re looking for a “temporary buddy” please respectfully just don’t reach out, I ain’t gonna lie I’m new to the whole friendship and whatnot so I don’t know what the fuck is a “temporary friend” So please respectfully just don’t reach out cuz it stings, I’m looking for something serious.

PPS: I apologise about the long text and the profanities I’ve used, ummm ya ma bad… Hope You guys have a wonderful day.

I owe my younger self one more shot in life, one last shot. Whether it works or not, I know I at least tried.