Very lonely and depressed
Im a 25F, I have literally no friends. Mostly because I don't trust people, been heartbroken way too many times and back stabbed by "friends". I have always wanted online friendships (preferably anonymous ish) so I can always have a safe space to go back to, but it has never worked. Nowhere to vent, express how I feel, share things. I feel like a robot at this point.
Can't open up to my family or people around me about my mental health, they don't care at all, and keeping it all inside all these years is having a nigative effect on me.
My physical health is deteriorating really quickly because of it.
My female friends always simply don't care about anything I say, they are just there to talk about themselves. And male friends eventually end up busy with their relationships and understandingly can't keep talking to me.
I am lonely yet there are way too many people around me!