I'm tired of being bisexual
I wish I was a lesbian. I understand that comes with many of it's own difficulties, but I'm tired of not being straight enough or gay enough. "They all end up picking a side". Feeling invisible. Sometimes it's simpler to fit into simple categories. There's no winning as a bisexual woman. A lot of people either don't believe you really like women, or men fetishize you.
TW: SA
And when they say that bi women are not oppressed when they date men, they forget that patriarchy exists, and dating men can actually really suck. I never would have been SA'd if I had never dated men. I know it's not my fault, but it's just true. I know lesbians are SA'd too, but the statistics show that bi women are SA'd more often than straight or lesbian women. And a large portion of SA happens when dating. If I had never been interested in dating men in the first place, I would have been safer.
And then they're like "no one is forcing you to date men", which is true, but then you have to actively deny half of your orientation. You can absolutely decide to only date women and that's what I want to do now, but I'm going into it understanding that it means avoiding half of my orientation, cause I'm a 50/50 bi. It also means avoiding the majority of my dating pool, since most people are straight.
But then when we realize that dating men can be awful, and we do move towards dating women, they make fun of us, downplay our experience, and act like we're just bi-curious even if we're always been bi. You know, maybe I have actually experienced being raped and abused in relationships with men, and it's left a real impact. It's actually serious and very valid to rethink dating men. But I also don't like when they treat us like we're stupid for having dated men, it feels victim blamey and unempathetic.