u/Min19O

I’m ‘19F’ and my boyfriend ‘20M’ been dating a couple months and it hasn’t been going to well at all. I don’t understand him at all. He has told me nasty things how he felt about me, told me I’m slow as bricks and just stupid. I have really bad memory as well due to past experiences. Then there’s time we’re good because he just sees me as not me? So it’s easy to talk to me. I’m confused, I don’t get it, maybe I am stupid. I’m just scared, that maybe it is all my fault. That I’m not smart enough to understand and love people. I don’t talk about serious stuff all the time, I take the my time trying to figure out words to talk and it comes out in shambles, he expects me to change so quick with something I’m not experienced. Our emotional bracket isn’t the same, it sucks. Cause I really like this dude, I was hoping that we can have something together but he was telling me he’s getting tired and feeling like his time is being wasted. My boyfriend doesn’t work, he just came back to the city I live in a year ago, has no job, no money or anything. I tried my best by helping but nobody is hiring him while I the other hand go to school and work. But he had the time to process how he feels as a person. He constantly would mentioned if he had the stuff like I have right now, he would be gladly to take it, while I’m wasting a blessing/opportunity and would not be talking to me. Am I bad the person?? That I can’t understand him at all or anything? I think too simple, I feel like I’m going through a crisis, I thought I was okay before I met him. I wanna keep learning but he kept telling me I’ll die like this, simple and nothing with no emotional depth. He wants me to do something that will help him instead fun stuff, which I tried but he doesn’t want to take bus transportation at all. He applied to bunch of jobs near him as well, it’s annoying. Though I’m a horrible narrator he said and this is mostly of my perspective of this relationship. I just need to know, if there’s something that I am doing isn’t right?