Anxious and terrified
I took a test Wednesday and I have blocked the app notifications on my phone waiting for a doctor to call because I can NOT bring myself to open the app with test results. Im catastrophizing everything and I cant function while waiting this anxiety is eating me alive.
Long story short im 26F I have multiple high risk encounters before my partner :( and when I got std tested it never included a H** test which I found out recently and I have been with my partner for 3 years now, he is fully negative for everything and we have not had interaction at all after his negative results. I decided to get tested but he doesnt know and Im just waiting panicking and terrified to even check if the results have been posted. He is extremely stimagmatic when it comes to anything std related and he would tell everyone im not safe telling him what im going through and we have a trip soon and im just panicking about if my results are bad what do I do what do I even say he will be so taken aback by an abrupt decision. Ughhhh.. im just losing it :( I got tested wednesdsy and its sunday i havent heard anything im fully convinced monday once they get in office they will say smth bad i hate this anxiety so so much … :(