u/MinimumTalk9469

At the time I read this one it wasn’t finished, and I
think I started it before I made my account so it’s not in my history.
*warning for sexual assault/rape in description*

It’s an AU where Neil is a trans man being sent to Wymack’s foster home (I think Neil got into some type of trouble and I think it was running). Neil is determined to make Wymack’s home last bc Neil and his daughter are together and they’re hiding in the system. Neil is a teenager here, maybe 15/16 in the current timeline.

Neil tells the people around him that the girl is his sister, but she’s actually his daughter. Neil was assaulted while on the run (possibly by his father’s men but maybe not?) and got pregnant, resulting in his daughter. I cannot remember her name but she only calls Neil dad/something similar in German, which I think Andrew overheard and that led to him pining Neil to the wall of the house in the middle of the night while sneaking out to ask him what he did/was doing to the little girl, and I believe also asked about the “bad man/men” she mentioned.

Before the encounter with Andrew, Neil panic and tells Abby that he’s trans and the girl is his daughter. Neil knew the other people in the house were weirded out by how close Neil and the girl were. I think it has to do with bathing (Neil doesn’t want Abby to do it bc he’s worried his daughter will be hurt the same way he was, he DOES NOT actually believe Abby will hurt her if I recall right), changing the girls clothes, and Neil wanting to sleep with the girl in what was supposed to be her own room. Neil begs Abby not to tell anyone that he is trans or that the girl is his daughter. He is desperate not to get separated from her and I believe Neil’s social worker/case worker makes him aware Wymack’s is his last chance for them to remain together.

I don’t know if it’s been expanded beyond what I read, but I would love to find it.

Thank you in advance!

I read a fic a while ago about Andrew leaving for the weekend/small trip (I believe with Aaron and maybe Nicky), before leaving he tells Kevin to take care of Neil…and Andrew eventually has to explain to Kevin he means sex is on the table. Neil and Andrew at this point have not “gone all way” so Neil is kind of shy about it but they do engage in those activities a couple of times during their time together(I believe they’re at the dorms). It’s more of a passionate, emotionally vulnerable thing for Kevin and Neil, rather than straight smut, if that makes sense.

Or if anyone can help me figure out how to search within my account, the other day I had a menu on the side of my screen that I could select fandoms/relationships and a few other things on to filter results more than a regular search but I cannot figure out how I did it yesterday and looking through me history is taking forever.

Thank you for any help in advance!

Hello!
I am looking for 1 (maybe 2 fics) I read from ao3, I’m pretty sure it’s 2. I’m not sure if the scenes I’m referring to are in 1 fic or if they’re separate!

One scene where Neil finds non sexual things attractive about Andrew, specifically there’s a scene where Andrew goes to parallel park and he puts his hand on Neil’s seat while he turns his head toward the back of the car.

The other is andrew telling Neil he’s like to bend him over a desk…you can picture what he wants to do, before they get interrupted by kevin(I think calling Neil to night practice?).

I’m looking for fics where Neil feels insecure about Andrew wanting him, so Neil enthusiastically consents to sexual acts with Andrew bc Neil feels Andrew will leave him eventually and he’s soaking up the affection bc he fears he’ll never feel like this about anyone else.
And I mean possibly Andrew would pry it out of him and they’d work on intimacy of both non sexual and sexual varieties. Totally okay with the Kevin being added to the mix or Jean/jeremy(and kevin if you have them!)

Totally okay with non sexual intimacy too, body worship and emotional sex are much appreciated as well.

This might sound weird but I’m working through something here and reading about characters going through a similar struggle to me has been beneficial for me so,
I’m looking for fic recs(on ao3 specifically) about the characters exploring their sexuality and pleasure either solo or with someone else, preferably more on the emotional side rather than the titillating side( I guess is how I would put it?!?) believe me, I have no issues works that are purely for the arousal, they’re good too. Just not exactly what I’m looking for right now.
I’m not opposed to kinks being explored in the fics, I also don’t mind if the characters start off with negative feelings, believe me I get it!

I’d also appreciate a my ideas for tags to use to find my own options!

Anyway I guess if you want any more info about what I’m trying to say, feel free to ask.

Finally, I’d like to apologize for how awkward this post is🫠.