I miss her a lot but I also feel like its better for us this way
Recently, I had a breakup it was a 2 year old relationship. I miss her and i love her a lot but I feel like things are better that we had to let things go. I cant sleep directly without thinking of her, I’d think of her throughout the day and would randomly make myself upset what if another guy dates her.
To be very honest, I know I tried my best to be the best partner for her but it just didn’t go right as we expected. I lacked in providing emotional support and comfort sometimes. She is the best partner i ever had but the road through which our relationship went was rough we had constant fights and arguments. Every now and then we used to breakup a lot before. I became numb with the constant amount of Breakups and Patch-Ups to the point that I took her words not seriously about leaving but then it happened and now my heart is broken so much. I don’t think I could ever move on from her.
I really can’t ask her to come back because things are way too broken to be fixed. Both our patterns were toxic. I had a lot of issues in me which affected her as well and I feel really guilty and she would constantly bring up the things which I used to do before and that would drain me so much. I could provide her physically, materialistically, words of affirmation but I lack in emotional availability sometimes because I am taking a shit ton of stress for my future as well. I miss all the good memories we made.