i’m not insecure, i’m just ugly
i am so tired of people with the “oh you’re just insecure” or “no one is looking at you the way you think they are” bs.
it’s always attractive or at least perfectly average people saying things like that as it they’re doing you a sympathy service. like no, at a certain point it’s not if i like myself or not, it’s the objective fact that every fucking time i go outside, i get stared and scowled at like im some kind of subspecies. as a kid i’ve had people straight up walk up to me and ask why i looked so ugly. i’ve been treated with hostility and contempt by strangers who i never even interacted with beyond a smile and hello.
at a certain point, it’s irrelevant if im insecure about myself if the world consistently treats me like shit because of something beyond my control. i barely leave the house anymore, it’s actually depressing at this point. normals genuinely don’t get it.