me and my mums relationship is so weird
i can tell she loves me
like she buys me stuff, cooks me dinner, makes me tea and whatever.
but she can get so angry and say the most horrible things to me..???
i don’t feel comfortable around her at all, im not myself at all, half the time it’s her talking and me just going yeah.. yeah…
but i feel bad for her because i know she’s lonely ?
if i criticise something that she does she can get so angry that she will talk for 40 minutes after even after the arguments finished and just babble
she calls me a gaslighter and manipulator and im evil and im trying to make her life hard and that i should move out (im 17) and she screams at me and sometimes cries and im always the one who apologises not her even if she’s done something wrong
i remebeee as a child id all her the best mum ever but i dont think i could ever label her that again since i was 9
i dont know whats wrong with her really sometimes i think shes neurodivergent maybe autistic.
She always argues with our landlords and random people and people she calls
like i asked her to call my gp the other day (i know i should he in control of that from 16+ but she insists she does it cuz shes scared of my health) and she hung up the phone and called her a cunt because apparently the lady couldn’t hear her.
i’m embarrassed of her my girlfriend has never been over there, and none of my friends since i became aware of her maybe when i was 9??
she can be real mean but it’s so confusing because she can be so nice
i really become envious of my girlfriend and her mums relationship because it’s so nice?
i wish i had something like that but i have never told her anything about myself really
and i’m worried im like her and im going to become as mean and narcissistic as she is
she’s told me some really horrible stuff before and everytime we argue she leaves the house at like 1AM and goes ona. walk she’s done it since i was like 7 she does it to scare us and txt her to come back i already know that for sure
idk man i just need someone to tell me if this is normal