u/Monkey_the_dragon

Shit with N
Started chatting on telegram specifically so that we wouldn’t see any of the chats and that they get deleted. You said nothing ever happened; but I do not trust that for one second. Men are horny and you always loved attention.
Sent selfie in bikinis
Sent photos / late night chats when in our bedroom in kolhapur. Maybe even when I was sleeping next to you
Always cut my phone when you were in the car with him. Lied to me saying you were in the train
Completely and utterly ruined *festival* for me. That moment is my trigger point now. Every *festival* from now to the future I will be thinking that something bad is going to happen.
Always an insecurity of having my heart broken again. It’s so bad that it’s easier to believe you’ll cheat on me again than not.
This all was AFTER we had R and when R was 2.5 /3 years old.

Same shit with S
Lied for six months. You were happy with me when you were sexting him. HE called ME when HE BROKE UP WITH YOU to tell you to stop troubling his sister for whatever shit you were doing. FUCK. WAS I THE BACKUP?! And then it was all “I didn’t know what I was doing” and btw, here’s some trauma from my life when people assaulted me. This made me go from being angry at the shit you did to be “oh no. It’s ok. I’m here”. You even mentioned something along the lines of *your cousin* masturbating in the hall of your home and asking you to help him with his dick out. You never mentioned the story again and made me think it wasn’t that bad or sth. WAS THAT A LIE TOO just for sympathy?!

Same shit with G
We were on vacation at Place A or somewhere. I was supportive of your friendships; but you explicitly lied to aaie and baba about going out with him. And then I see the message “aww my poor baby. 😘😘 imagine I’m holding you again so close that you can feel my heartbeats” Which means 1- either a very tight long hug or 2 - he had his face on ur tit. It happened in his car. At some point when you were roaming with him and lied to me about it. You were always insistent you were friends. I honestly did not believe that. And as soon as you stopped being physically close to him; he threw you away

In every situation; I have been your second choice. I have been the backup. I have been the safe bet. You had your fun; you had your ego fulfilled by other guys and I am the safe bet. And honestly, I never had the self respect or strength to stand up for myself. I really don’t know why my parents didn’t advise me to break it off after S. If any woman or man treats R or K the same; I will advise them to end it then and there. It’s not worth living with the heartache and in constant fear. I feel I have to be the best and if I don’t, if I don’t cater to your whims; you’ll go and find another dick to fuck and I’ll be left the whatever’s left again.