u/MonsterousGuilt

Hi,

Im shattering as I write this, but my soul kitty was diagnosed with heart failure. I want to say more, but im trying to keep the post relevant to Hecate.

Im looking for a way to ask Hecate for help with guiding his spirit or some kind of ritual to guide him

I still want him to be able to find me again if he wants to, but I dont want to forcefully bind his soul here or to me.

I know Hecate is Goddess of the in-between, and liminal spaces, but I'm still learning-- is guiding his soul in her domain as well?

When the time comes, I just want to be able to help in all the ways I can, his soul included. 😭💔🕯

Tldr: the company I work for used to do good things for communities, now I have reason to believe the company could be harming society with a shift in their goals. I cried put to Hecate about that, and some home stuff and debts. I think she opened the door as I asked for, so I could leave. But things shifted at work. My home life has shifted. The situation is different now and im torn.

Longer story:

I work at a company that does work I believe in. At least, until about 3 months ago when they announced they'd be supporting data centers financially. I cried out to Hecate, about how I wanted to help people and not harm, to steward the environment, not harm it. Im also strapped financially and my job pays well. So well that i cant just do the same job elsewhere without a huge paycut

I asked her to break the chains and build the path and if she did, I would walk it and I would leave the company.

A job posting opened. 4k less than what I make now, but I applied. Its mission driven for exactly what I believe in. Theyre currently reviewing apps.

Meanwhile, total home chaos happened the next month. That is a longer story but what you need to understand this part of it is: I had information that at the time led me to believe Id be losing my house. There was more than one issue. Its truly a lot. I was grieving and devastated.

It forced me to have a scary 1:1 with my boss where I made my case for a higher paying role. Why? Because suddenly the option to leave for a little less was OFF my table and I had to invest in where I was, no matter how I morally felt about it i have to protect my family first while I look for other work.

My boss is willing to work with me. He decided this over a few weeks. Over those few weeks, the issues I had with the house resolved themselves. (I had good reason to believe i was about to have to spent 44k in repairs in the house. Suddenly it was 4k.If you want more on that, lmk)

Now,

A friend who applied for the other job told me she got her Declined email for the post. I havent and its been days later. Meaning my resume is still on the table for consideration at that other (new) company

So y'all... what the heck :'(

I promised Hecate if she broke the chains of debt i faced and built the bridge, I would take it.

But this new role at the current company woukd mean if I stayed here 2 years I could* launch somewhere else and be paid MUCH more and be financially sound/protected while the other role pays far less and won't have the opportunities

I know the decision isnt even immediate, but I truly dont want to have broken a promise to Hecate by not walking through this other* door, if it appears