Can Someone Explain This To Me
Hello. I am a new follower and have a strange request. If this is against any rules, I appologize and accept my post being deleted.
I was getting some stuff today from my local metaphysical shop, and getting some information from the woman who runs it. She's a witch too (I'm a baby one) and I was getting information about Hecate. Firstly, I found out I was saying her name wrong (whoops.)
Secondly, she said something that frightened me a lot. She told me "just a heads up, she will test you. She does not tolerate weakness. If you waste her time there will be consequences. But if you are faithful there will be blessings."
I left, and had a full on panic attack. This is not her fault, I want to be clear; I'm not blaming her. This is likely true for her and she had no idea I'm carrying around trauma from being told about hell as a small child. But, now I'm picturing a string of bad luck if I make a mistake, or her taking my graduate school acceptance out from under me if we part ways.
I need someone who isn't in my head to elaborate for me, and maybe translate this in a way that isn't so ominous sounding? What do I need to know?
Thank you to anyone who read this far.
Edit: Thank you everyone who weighed in and was so kind to me. I have a lot to learn and I'm shaking off a lot of misinformation from when I was younger, so I appreciate the insights I have been given.
I wanted to share something with everyone as thanks for taking a moment to help me, but everyone can skip it if I doesn't resonate. I decided since we're at twilight here where I live to commune with her and ask her about this myself. I use the crow tarot for our seissons so bare with me. I wanted to ask her if she really wouldn't tolerate any weakness, and what would happen if I displeased her.
As I was talking I felt a release, a weight off my shoulders. Before I could even finish my question to her, the empress card jumped out in my shuffle. Followed by the ten of pentacles and the hierophant when I did finish. I believe she is telling me firstly that she is not a jury to me but a mother and teacher, and redirecting me to remember the stability and security I felt with her before today.
The lady at the shop meant well, but her experience is not mine. Thank you all for reminding me of that, and thank you Blessed Mother Hecate.