r/Hecate

Hi, it's my very first deipnon, and I messed it up really bad I think.

I don't have much to offer, so I left her some: honey, dried figs, rosemary, dried dandelion, and a biscoff biscuit.

I also didn't clean or cleanse my apartment, I have no idea how to do intentional wards, I have a protection spell I used from a dried bay leaf a bit ago.

I also did a tarot reading at my altar, and got the strong urge in my gut to leave. Leave right then and don't return to it. I said, "okay I'll leave you alone now." The tarot reading was very interesting. I don't remember it but it said that I'm broke and I've been making bad financial decisions lately (I have) and i need to fix it.

That night I didn't do anything spiritual. I just went on my phone, but something felt off about it. I had this thought that I should be doing spiritual work, but I'm in a lot of pain (i have fibromyalgia and its been hitting really bad lately) and i couldn't really get up. I had tea and some biscoff and nodded off because of how much pain I've been in. I never do that.

I woke up several times last night from weird lucid dreams. The first one was weird and all I remember is it gave me a sense of danger. The second time was the same, but near the end this woman had this jar she was whipping something up in. I asked her what it was, and she said it was a protection spell. She didn't say if it was for me or not, but after that, I had a third weird lucid dream, but it was a lessened sense of danger.

I don't know what to make of it, but I've definitely learned my lesson: put up some fkin wards, more protections, and learn the craft before doing anything with the spiritual world.

I put a post in here last night actually about my cat actually. It was weird how she was reacting to it. At a certain point, she intentionally sat right in front of it with her back turned, and she was irritated for the rest of the night. I thought she was being silly, now I'm not so sure.

I need some advice.