u/Comprehensive_Ad8895

I've been all over the place with this journey of intuition and trusting myself. I've had many signs throughout my life, but I'm very skeptical and usually end up brushing them off as luck, coincidence, or my brain looking for patterns.

I grew up in a Hindu household, but my mother was Christian, so there were always arguments in my family that eventually made me hate the idea of religion. Regardless of how I grew up, I do believe there is some higher spiritual power that we're not able to comprehend.

Throughout my life, I've also experienced recurring angel numbers, especially during periods when something felt very intense or when I was going through a major change in my life. I've repeatedly noticed certain numbers appearing over and over again, along with other little pieces of symbolism or things that felt like signs. I've never known whether to take these things seriously, though, because I'm very skeptical and always end up telling myself there's probably a logical explanation.

When I was younger, my favorite book series of all time was Percy Jackson. I was never much of a reader, but I reread the entire series probably 2–3 times. Greek mythology was always really interesting to me, even though I never thought much of it beyond that.

There have also been things where I've predicted events or been able to get into this meditative-like state where I just let go, make decisions, and they end up being the right ones.

One example was in high school. We had a multiple-choice computer science test, which was my worst subject, and I had done absolutely no preparation. Somehow, I ended up getting every question correct by choosing intuitively. It was around 20 questions with 4 different choices each. My friends told me the chance of getting everything right without knowing the answers was incredibly low, but I brushed it off as luck.

I had an interest in astrology when I was younger and then stopped believing in it, even though a lot of what I discovered was surprisingly accurate. Again, I blamed it on coincidence.

Around 3–4 years ago, when I was going through some drama in my life, I started getting tarot reading recommendations on YouTube. They would constantly feel incredibly accurate, but I brushed it off as coincidence or the algorithm knowing what I was going through.

Recently, Instagram started showing me palm-reading videos, including one saying that a certain X mark in a specific position on your palm means you're a witch or possess abilities associated with one. Again, I thought it was just the algorithm.

The next day, I went to the gym with my boyfriend. I gave him my phone because women's clothing has no pockets, and he ended up losing it on the train.

He was panicking, but for some reason, I had this feeling in my gut that everything would be okay. I was actually the one trying to calm him down about my own lost phone.

We caught another train that would intersect with the previous train at the same stop. He kept calling my phone, hoping someone would answer, but for about 15 minutes there was no response.

While we were on the train, I looked up at the sky and saw an X-shaped mark formed by some jets. Because of the palm-reading video from the previous day, I immediately took it as a sign, especially seeing how stressed my boyfriend was.

Eventually, he stopped calling and started crying from defeat, apologizing for losing my phone. He had his hands over his eyes and, in that moment, I closed mine and kind of prayed, chanted, or manifested in my head. I kept repeating:

"I have my phone with me."

Immediately after, we got a call from someone who had found my phone.

I still tried to brush it off.

Then came August 12th, the morning of the solar eclipse.

I got a reel on Instagram about Goddess Hecate wanting to work with me, followed immediately by another reel saying that I'm one of her children. I had never heard of her before that day, but again, I thought it was just the algorithm showing me something popular.

I researched her for a little while that morning, and surprisingly, so much about her resonated with me. Her symbolism, character, what she stands for, her signs, the animals associated with her, even her aesthetic.

I've always worn black clothes and have always loved red to the point that my hair is dyed dark red.

It was also my first time actually experiencing a solar eclipse. When I was little, my family would always make me stay inside during eclipses, which obviously makes sense because looking directly at one can permanently damage your eyes.

The following night, around 3 AM, there was a meteor shower where you could supposedly see at least one shooting star every minute until 5 AM. This was my first time experiencing anything like that. I'd never even seen a single shooting star before.

The next day, I felt this weird pull towards learning more about Hecate, so I researched her even more.

That same day, my boyfriend and I were gambling for fun. Nothing crazy, just €50. He chose all the slot machines and lost everything. I then said I'd put in another €50, but this time I'd choose the machines.

I started choosing the ones that called out to me and asked, "Mother Hecate, please guide me."

I'm not even sure why it came so naturally to refer to her as "mother."

I chose the machines that felt like they were calling me, and a lot of them happened to have symbolism associated with Hecate: the number 3, snakes, dogs, frogs, etc.

I ended up winning around €160 in total.

That night, I asked again, "Mother Hecate, please show me a sign in my dream."

I had several dreams, but one stood out to me.

I was in a prayer room with my grandma and grandpa. My grandma passed away a few years ago, and I never had the chance to say goodbye to her. Our relationship was quite rocky, but she always had a special kind of care and protection over me, a bond she didn't really have with anyone else in my family.

In the dream, she blessed me and it felt like she put some kind of protection over me. I'm not completely sure how to describe it. I also hugged her.

My grandma was a very devoted Hindu and probably the most spiritual woman in my family. She was incredibly connected to her religion. Even though I never personally connected with being Hindu, I always appreciated her devotion and belief. I feel like, regardless of what religion it was, the energy she put into her faith made it real to her.

Then, in the dream, she told me that my grandpa had passed away.

I told her that he was still alive, but she kept telling me, "No, he's gone."

When I woke up, I had a really strange feeling in my gut.

About three days later, my dad called me and told me that my grandpa had an accident and had fallen, and that I should call him. He's okay, thankfully, but he has a very large swelling and bruise on his hand.

I'm not sure what to make of all of this.

I've never had dreams about my grandparents before, and the dream only happened after I specifically asked Hecate for a sign.

I also know that I'm probably connecting dots because I'm actively looking for signs, and I'm aware that algorithms, coincidence, confirmation bias, and pattern recognition can explain a lot of these things.

But at the same time, some of these experiences feel incredibly specific and strange, especially the phone situation, the recurring angel numbers and symbolism throughout my life, the dream, and then my grandpa having an accident a few days later.

I'm not trying to convince myself or anyone else that Hecate is actually communicating with me. I'm genuinely unsure.

So I'm wondering: Would you personally take this as a sign? How do you distinguish spiritual intuition from coincidence, confirmation bias, or simply your brain looking for patterns? And if you were in my position, what would you do next?